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1. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
2. Tag seven people to do the same.
3. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag whoever wants to do it.

-Before I wanted to be a writer, I wanted to be a paleontologist.
-I always have an illicit crush.
-I didn't know how to spell "tomorrow" till I was a sophomore.
-I listen to books on tape to fall asleep every night, still.  Only know it's audiobooks on my ipod.
-I get jealous really easily.  Not about normal things, either.  But like, if people that I don't even care about are really good friends with one another, I get jealous that they're so close.  Stuff like that.
-The only thing I unequivocally like about myself is my hair.  Luckily, I really REALLY like my hair.
-I'm a compulsive time-checker.

Okay, I tag Ariadne, Betsy, Nina, Prashanthi, Jessie, Kate, and Vince (if he reads this)

I am now officially employed at That's A Wrap, on 7th St. and Palm Lane.  Come visit!  Best, healthiest sandwiches you'll ever eat, seriously.  Possibly even yummier than the Duck.  So, YAY JOB!

Hey, so I reaaaaally need a job if this "going to France just the two of us, no help from parents" thing is going to work out.  Anywhere y'all know of that's hiring?  Preferably not somewhere that opens before 5AM (Einsteins was a bit of a fiasco).

And no, Vince, I am not interested in OSF.  I have heard too many horror stories.

Wait-listed at Pomona.  I sent the thing back saying I didn't want to remain on the waiting list.  So I guess it's Oberlin or U of A, and by that I mean I guess it's U of A.  Oberlin is expensive, and cold, and very very far from a certain love-of-my-life type someone. 

16.  I know you mostly through your association with BTH, although I wish I knew you more as you and less as his girlfriend.  You are pretty and intelligent and accepting, all qualities I really admire.  And you know how to put those boys in their places.  You are also half of my favorite couple at North.  You guys are perfect for one another, and I wish you all the happiness possible in your life.

17.  I am trying to include everyone who might read this on the list, so the next few, like you, are going to be "I don't know you very well but..."
So I don't know you very well, but I wish I did.  You are newly dating one of my dear friends and let me tell you how giddy you make her.  I have never seen her in a healthy relationship, wherein she actually liked her counterpart.  Your entries on lj fascinate me and make me wish I knew everything about you.  You strike me as creative and brilliant and well worth knowing, and I will not be surprised when someday everybody knows your name.  We had drama together two years in a row and I always wished we became friends, but I got the impression you thougt I was dumb.  Which was probably an accurate impression.  Anyway, if you happen to read this, hi.  Thanks for making her so happy.

18.  Again, someone I don't know that well.  About a month ago, you posted that entry that threw everyone for an absolute loop because it was so unflinchingly honest.  I just want you to know that I read every single word of that entry and I wish I had the personal courage to have called you, or something, just to let you know I'd read it and I care about you.  I cannot think of a single thing about which we agree, but that's okay because I have always found you hilarious, if a bit caustic.  You are so smart and I wish you could see the things in yourself that others see in you.  We were in one really fun play together, which is my best memory of you.  You will probably not read this to even see that you're in here, but on the off-chance you do, I just wanted you to know all this.  You're very audacious but very brave.

 19.  You are the It Girl this year, it seems, and deservedly so.  All of a sudden everyone I know wants to spend as much time with you as possible.  I don't know you very well, but I do understand the sentiment.  You're sweet and kind, and a delight to be around.  I am heartbroken that you're dropping drama next semester because you are such an integral part of that class.  But hopefully I will still see you every now and then.  Oh, and also, I think you are probably the hottest girl ever.  You have a really amazing body.  Just throwing that one out there...

Thats it for the LJ people, I think.  Non-LJ list coming soon.

In other news, physics final raped me in the ass good and hard.  That's about the only way to put it.  And also, I love how these days we just walk out of drama after the attendance.  Bob Johnson is a psychpath and I have never felt less guilty about taking full advantage of a person.

French and Lowes finals on Thursday, and then I'm done. Fuck yes.

1.  My relationship with you has been so BIZARRE and also really long, but I feel like we finally found an okay, or better-than-ok, place.  You make me understand myself better, if that makes any sense.  I love all the bizarre quirks that other people wish would go away, and I really would do anything for you.  We have parallel lives, and especially parallel brothers. 

2.  No one in my life has been more formative than you.  Everything I am, everything I love and fear and want to be, traces itself back to you, in large ways or small ways.  You are my muse.  You, like number one, make me understand myself better.  I hope we have finally figured out how to be, because I need you in my life for anything to make sense.  You are integral.  But I am terrified of you.  This is the most complicated relationship I have ever had.

3. We met when you were a freshman and I was a sophomore (that will give it away immediately).  We hit if off immediately, and formed a really unique, creative way of being friends.  I feel like you're far more important in my life than the amount of time we have actually spent together should allow, and that we have a bond that's really difficult to explain.  All I know is, you make me think about things in new ways.  And also you're hysterically funny in a lovely, vulgar way that  makes other people cringe, which is an important skill.  You're an incredible writer.  I don't know if people tell you that very often.  But you are.

4.  I have known you sporadically since we were little, but high school is what really made us friends.  I think you are just lovely.  Sometimes I get a little annoyed with you, because you overjustify things and try too hard, but you must know that I adore you.  You've been one of my only consistent friends, someone who I know I can always count on.  Sometimes I am really mean to you, and it tears me up inside, but I never apologize.  Well I am apologizing now.  I think we will remain friends for a long, long time.  Stay strong.

5.  I fell in love with you freshman year, and I've never looked back.  You are honestly one of the wittiest people I have ever met, and I know for a fact that you'll do something hilarious with your life.  We have amazing, non-sequitor conversations that make life worth living.  You, like 4, have been one of my most consistent close friends.  Thanks for that.  You have HORRIBLE taste in men.

6.  I don't really know anymore what I think of you. At one point, you saved my life over and over and over again, but  I feel like maybe I was just one of your projects.  We haven't really kept up a relationship.  That  makes me pretty sad.  Sometimes you do things that I think are just inappropriate and terribly annoying, but then I remember that everything about you is kind and well-intentioned.  You care about people in a way I have never seen in anyone else before, but then again sometimes it feels like you just collect friends.  I would like to know that some of your relationships are genuine, because sometimes I wonder if you leave lots of people behind the way I feel like you left me.  I still want to know you again, though.  You're magnetic.  And I do love you, at the bottom of everything.

7.  I am so, so drawn to you.  Everything about you fascinates me.  You are probably the only truly unique person I have ever met.  You don't live your life by anyone else's conventions, and I admire that so much.  Lately I have felt that you've lost some of that you-ness and begun to be a little too much of her sidekick, but I guess you don't feel that way, so I have no right to let it matter.  You have the same kind of passion about something as I do, and I think we understand that about one another.  You are to movies as I am to books. You are brilliant and creative and I really, really hope everything you want to happen in your life, does.  Because you are one of those people who I know can and will change things.  I still want to be friends, but mutually admiring acquaintances is ok, too.

8.  I knew your big brother first, but this year I've become closer and closer with you.  I used to find you a little over-the top, and it seemed like you did a lot of stuff just for attention.  I have since learned a great deal more about you and I admire you so much for your strength.  I know you will get through all of this and be a far stronger person for it, and I know I will never stop admiring you for that battle.  I like being your adopted big sister.  I hope we keep knowing each other even when we don't go to the same school anymore.  It's funny to think about my history with your family.

9.  I feel really left out not knowing you very well, but what I do know of you, I like very much.  You are able to be completely yourself, sometimes at your own social peril, which amazes me.  You can be so deeply offensive and I think that you need to see more of the world to learn how not to judge people so harshly, but I think you are totally able to do so.  I also think that you are one of the kindest people there is, and that you'd do anything for your friends.  I really wonder whether you'll read this.

10.  There was a period of time where I thought we might be able to be really good friends, but then it kind of fell off without anything real coming of it.  I am so intimidated by your creativity and know-how, and I am always really afraid you think I'm stupid.  You're close friends with someone who really hurt someone I love dearly, and I was not all that nice or effective about that situation at all, but I hope that by this point we can be past that.  I would like to be back in touch with you, but even if that never happens, I still think you're incredibly neat.  We've had some wonderful talks.

11.  I have no idea if you will read this.  If you do, it will probably be on someone else's friends page, and you will not be looking for yourself on this list at all.  I am deeply intimidated by you, and everytime I talk to you I feel like you are judging me.  I want you to like me more than is healthy, because I think you're brilliant and would be a cool person to know.  I don't think we will ever be friends, but I would at least like you to know that I respect you a lot and always have.  One time we had a conversation about books, and I felt proud that I knew something about an author you liked. 

12.  I don't really like you all that much, but that is probably because I have always felt like we were competing.  You always win, too, which is hard for someone like me, used to being first.  You are very enigmatic to me because I always wonder if there's someone a little more intense brewing beneath your surface, and if I or anyone else will ever see that intensity.  I don't understand how you can be as one-dimensional as you seem.  But I wish you all the happiness in the world.  I doubt we will ever talk again after this year.

13.  We have known each other for a pretty long time, but never been friends really.  I have always liked you a lot, though.  You're very random and full of fun ideas, and you seem like the kind of person with whom a friendship would be pretty fun.  I really like your strong sense of identity, and I also love reading your journal entries because they are always, always funny.  Especially the ones about your family.  I hope you get to do what you actually want to do with your life, and don't let anyone or anything else dictate your happiness.  One time a boy did a really mean thing to you and it changed my opinion of him forever, so just so you know, I've got your back.

14.  We have every reason in the world to dislike one another, and did for a really long time, but I think we've both done a lot of growing up and realized its beside the point.  Last year, we shared a fairly harrowing experience that made me realize I agree with you a lot more than I would ever have expected, an experience that involved a math table from hell.  Haha, that will give it away.  I don't really have that much more to say to you.  Which is weird, because at one point in my life I would have cherished the opportunity to tell you exactly what I thought of you.  But that has stopped being important.  I am glad you exist to have the opposite point of view as me, but be intelligent about it.

15.  You don't seem to like yourself very much, which is a crying shame because I think you're the most creative and humorous person I have ever met.  A lot of people know you, but as far as I can tell not that many know you WELL.  I like that about you.  You keep things to yourself.  We spent a bunch of time together this summer and it made me see you in a whole different light, which was awesome because you're very sweet and a great friend.  I hope you know this is you.  I really want you to know that I like you.

Keep guessing, people!